yeah, about that...

ok, so that second part titled "action" that i previously mentioned? apparently i don't know what that word means. i'm still in the state of realization, but instead of fixing the problem i seem to be either avoiding it or wallowing in my shortcomings, which are two activities that i find get me nowhere. i'm so bogged down. i'm stuck. in a rut. like somewhere along the road i traded in my jeep for a honda and then found that i had careened into a ditch and am now rendered  unable to roll on out due to the shortcomings of my sedan and my own lack of interest. wow that is sad. help me. and as i ask that, i wonder that if you tried, would i accept? how much longer can i possibly survive this way? i want to live.